A Lesson in Self- Judgment

All in all, life has been great, ridiculously great at times. Lately, more so than ever before, I catch myself in awe of how magical my day to day life is. 

Recently, the consistent stream of goodness has invited my ego out to play a bit more than I would like. I find myself relishing a little bit too much in my recent accomplishments and have been experiencing gentle lessons that have been quite humbling. One recent blunder I created brought a heat of embarrassment to my face for nearly 2-3 weeks recounting the experience in my mind. During tonight's full moon ceremony, after a vulnerable heart to heart session with my incredible roommate, I found the courage to face this event head on. I invited the physical blockage, experienced this discomfort, observed the mental and emotional responses, and learned to accept the nectar of this lesson to store the positive teachings and to surrender this blockage. I learned the lesson once more of non-judgment even as it pertains to myself and my own actions. I learned how to forgive, laugh with, and love my own rough edges that are still being smoothed out. I am recognizing and falling in love with my own humanity and remembering the importance of staying vigilant and committed to "doing the work". I recognize my own imperfections in a space of love and am given the opportunities to observe with compassion and without self-judgment. I am strengthening that compassion muscle for my relationship with myself. I am humbled, shaken, and re-awakened to the significance of the journey. I am grateful for these Tong-Tong learnings, for the sake of my growth and for the collective. I am grateful for everything. I am grateful for the incredible support and the continuous opportunities to rewrite my story and the endings of different chapters. I love you Tong-Tong. Thank you for surrendering, forgiving, and returning to a state of self love. I'm here for you.

To anyone else reading this, I love you and please don't forget to give yourself the forgiveness you deserve. Learning to use the intensity of energy following a seemingly unpleasant experience and transmuting the polarity of that experience can ultimately lead to transcending the experience and using that same energy as fuel for growth. Onward to the next level, the next challenge, the next leg of the journey. 

I'm ready for you <3 

Love & Light,
TT
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