Lately, I have been feeling incredibly grateful the the amazing people in my life.
Truthfully, I cannot say I have ever had a hard time meeting new people or forming connections in unlikely places. However, I do find in most environments, I've always felt the pressure to hold back from my true full expression. Perhaps this is out of the ego-driven fear of "what if they don't understand/accept me for who I am? What if I do something not socially acceptable? Why do I even care if what I do or say fits in to the condoned social norms?" I have noticed once the self-doubt creeps in, the game of "what ifs and whys" creates a strange thought cycle that then manifests as tension within my body. I am then less natural in my environment, more withdrawn, and feel less empowered to be my full authentic self.
Despite being an ENFP, I have observed a craving to be alone to process my experiences and to decompress from the overwhelming inflow of energy from all the beautiful human interactions I receive through my amazing job. My time away from work creates the desire to be more selfish with my time and energy, as I seek to actively learn more and more each day about how to fill up my own cup. Though it is necessary to discern between when it's appropriate to take time for oneself (without remorse), I have found it to be equally as necessary to engage with those we care about on a daily basis.
Recently, I am blessed with the company of AWESOME individuals with whom I have greatly enjoyed exchanging energy with. In a sense, this has reawakened me to my purpose, which is to serve as a channel for Divine Love. When exchanging energy with like-minded individuals hungry for growth and equipped with the openness, honesty, and introspection, is an entirely different level of nourishment for my mind-body-soul complex. When there is a true deep heart-felt connection between myself and the other, it is as if our stories and life experiences run parallel. The words shared have a direct and powerful ability to activate a deeper part of my core, leaving me to think, "Mmm, brother/sister speaks for me". It is through this raw and honest reflection that I am able to catalyze my own processing. I am recognizing the potent power of storytelling as a means of learning and teaching. I have always enjoyed being the one who tells the stories, but just now truly falling in love with giving my full attention and listening to others tell their stories. What a remarkable gift it is to receive someone's reflection, witness their growth, and see the sparkle in the micro-expressions of their face when recounting an experience. It is beautiful experience when we come together to co-create an environment where everyone feels safe to bring their full selves to the table.
A big thank you to the wonderful, magical humans I have been fortunate enough to cross paths with. Your presence and fearless commitment to honoring your true selves have held the space for me to grow. This has been a great tool for me to reflect on my own experiences with great love and care. Thank you for sharing vulnerable pieces of your journey with me and for being fully present and engaged while I share my stories. It is a true blessing to both witness and be witnessed in full beauty and rawness.
With Love & Light,
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